On the other hand, today feels awfully penitential. I'm tired, hungry, and bothered with all sorts of temptations to be anxious, bitter, discouraged, and worried. Can I call it "spiritual warfare"? Because that's what it feels like. The past 24 hours have been a battle. God has blessed me, but "the world, the flesh, and the devil" are trying to take away my joy. There's a reason "Counsel the doubtful" is a spiritual work of mercy; that nasty stuff doesn't go away easily.
Learning to really trust God through this uncertainty is one of my goals this Lent. I'm sure He and I will have some very forthright talks on my silent Ignatian retreat in two weekends. (I'm both excited and terrified. Anybody have advice about preparing for one of these things?) I'm also going to work on some spiritual reading I've been meaning to do.
Other than that, here's the formal "What am I doing for Lent" list
- No sweets or secular TV (a family tradition.) This means it's time to review a bunch more Jesus movies.
- Attending daily Mass once a week
- Praying the Rosary every day during my commute
- Sending out at least one job application a week - if I want God to help my future, I better do something about it.
What are you giving up this year? How do you build trust in God?